stupid dam dam

aku kene marah balik?
hailaaaa...adela plak org mcm ni..
aku kene marah..pasal die..aku kene marah balik?
haila haila...nak jegil2 mate kat aku pehal...
aku yg ptt marah die ni..die nk marah aku watpe?
pehal?aku sms tuh salah ke?xkn aku nk ckp dgn die..depan2 org?
ade ke patut?aku salah lagi?
gile..mmg gile..
aku yg kene marah?aku kene marah balik?!
kalau ikotkn ati yg marah membara ni...
dh lame aku sepakkan muke die tu..
aku plak yg kene marah..
so wut?!!

babun gile tahap dewa ntah mane..cam haram!!!!

aku bengang gile sbnrnye..dr smlm aku simpan bende ni..aku sgt2 sedih..
aku yg pegi kursus..tambang, makan, tempat tinggal sume sdri..diorg cume bayar utk kursus sahaja(itupon kalau diorg bayar)..tp sijil die..company yg simpan.aku sedey sgt2 teramat2 sedey.penat aku blaja..penat aku amek exam..diorg simpan sijil aku..dgn harapan..kite akan stay lame kat ctu.tapi kalau the way they treat us..like rubbish..then who the hell yg nak stay lame.bkn nk menguuk rezeki yg penah aku dapat tp sgalanye menyakitkan.aku sedih.knp, hanye sekeping sijil tuh dorg akan buat aku mcm ni.itu namenye menyekat rezeki org lain!xnak bg org lain excel dalam hidup.sgguh busuk hati dorg ni.aku mmg sgguh2 menyesal keje kat ctu!knp dorg ni suke sgt menyusahkan aku.termaktub mane termaktub..gile bapak die aa..sum tuh boleh dibincangkan.apehal, kalau pon sijil tuh diorg simpan..nak bawak pegi mane?pegi kubur?!haaaa..aku dh gerambtol ni!!ape sgt kos dorg?ape sgt ko syg die nk bekira sgt dgn ape yg penah aku bg kan pada syarikat dulu?aku btol2 geram skrg ni!

love like this

Well we go back so far,
swingin in your back yard,
all the things that we used to do
We were cool back in high school
ooh I really liked you,
must have been your attitude.

That’s why you keep on runnin
in and out of my mind.
As the years they’ll roll by,
Baby, now I know why
I keep comin back to you.

You’re the only one that knows me,
love it when you hold me,
never find a love like this.
Let me hear you say,
now I’ll never be lonely,
look at what you’ve shown me,
never find a love like this

Well this life tries to keep us apart
you keep callin me back to your heart.
Let me hear you say,
I'm so glad you found me,
wrap your world around me,
never find a love like this.

All the guys tried to take me,
you’re the one who saved me,
I feel like I owe you my life.
And as strange as it may seem,
I’ll go if you take me
I'm willing to sacrifice.

That’s why you keep on runnin
in and out of my mind.
As the years, they’ll roll by,
it’s not hard to know why
I keep comin back to you.

You’re the only one that knows me,
love it when you hold me,
never find a love like this.
[Love Like This lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]


Let me hear you say,
now I’ll never be lonely,
look at what you’ve shown me,
never find a love like this.

Cause this life tries to keep us apart,
you keep calling me back to your heart.
Let me hear you say,
I'm so glad you found me,
wrap your world around me,
never find a love like this.

May never find a love, love, love a love like this,
that still make me think about my middle school kiss.
I sit here in this chair and I wish
for you not to leave me now.
My friends they always told me
not to make you my wifey,
man they was putting you down.
And now they see we rollin,
me and you, we strollin,
they don’t wanna come around.

Let me hear you say,
you’re the only one that knows me,
love it when you hold me,
never find a love like this.
Let me hear you say,
now I’ll never be lonely,
look at what you’ve shown me,
never find a love like this.

When this life tries to keep us apart,
you keep callin me back to your heart.
Let me hear you say,
I’m so glad you found me,
wrap your world around me,
never find a love like this,

Oh whoa...(Oh whoa...) Never find a love like this…(x5)
When this life tries to keep us apart,
you keep callin me back to your heart,
Let me hear you say,
Oh whoa...(Oh whoa...) Never find a love like this.
Oh whoa...(Oh whoa...) Never find a love like this

manchester united 4 - arsenal 0..wakakakkaka

wakakakakak..ijinkan aku gelak yaaa...
wakakakkaka..4-0?ape ni?
kate pendahulu liga..tp semacam main dgn org division bawah plak..
hohoho..xbermaya langsung aku tgk pemain2 aRSENAL.begitu sengal skali..adoilaa..
hakhak..puas ati aku bersengkang mate..untuk tgk game ni!
mmg best aa..nani n anderson.hoho..aku salute giler dgn diorg ni..
nani especially..hoh, mmg kasik arsenal's players bengang saje.
fabregas?ku nmpaknya macam sayur saja malam itu.hoho..
adebayor..masuk2 saja..sudah kad kuning..skali die tukar pemain..haa..amek kau..
tiga skali..hoho..punyela...
klakar aa tgk game malam tuh..
aku cemas gak..takot game yg sblm ni berulang lagi..
time tuh arsenal melawan tanpa henti..man u gol sebiji, die balas sebiji..
man u gol 2 die pon gol 2..
tp yg malam tu..kat old trafford..sedey gile aku tgk dorg..lehmann?kesian sgguh..
kasik bungkus laaa..arsene wenger, wa nengok muke die dh merah padam.=p
kat stadium..lg 10-15 minit game nk abes, stadium ku pandang dah kosong..
arsenal supporters dah caboottt dulu.hoho..keciannnn..
pendahulu liga,..main cam sayooooooorrr..lemah longlai...
aiyerr...ape macam tuh?
4-0??kalau 1-0 tuh ok aa lgi..ini 4?!dude...man u's gonna grab that treble this season seriously if arsenal play like that AGAIN.dude..lemau giller!
adoilaaaa..aku senyum dah cam lebar bebenauuuuuu..
senyummm jer..bile aku tringat camane nani main, anderson n nani..mmg best!
hoho..
lagi satu yg mengejutkan..liverpool..KALAH lagi..aiseyy..trok bebenorrr ni..adoiii

he and his stupid damn ASS!!

how dare he yell at my face?!!!stupid fucking idiot jerk!
fuck him big time!hey, it's my blog btw..i can say watever i wanna say
i asked him..politely..wat did i get?a freaking yell..that every single human in this office can hear it!damn him for embarassing me.fuck him for yelling at me.at go to hell for every yells he did to me.
this isnt the 1st time..it has been several time..but this time..
worse than before.like i say..every single..tiny lil ears can hear his fucking words!
damn it!and..luckily..i didnt yell back at him.i was just totally 'SHOCKED' and i can tell that my face turning red, cos i was sooooooooo embarassed.the only thing i said is take and read the newspaper elsewhere.i dont wanna see ur face(luckily im holding newspaper)shit!!!shit!!!blushit!!!and now..headache!for god sake..nobody ever yell at me like that!(well, my mom..that's exceptional)ooo god!he is soooooooooooooooooooo much lucky that i didnt even get to curse him on his bloody face!bloody jerk!
>>sabar nadia, sabar...(my really nice ofcmate..consoled me)jgn dilayan org mcm tuh lg..biarkan die..buat mcm die xde kat cni lagi.lenkali..jgn bg die ape2 pon..

>kak..sy mintak barang sy yg die amek.tibe2 die jerit kat muke saye.

>>tauu..lenkali, jgn bg.awk amek je yg baru.yg awk punye.biarkan kat die.

>hurmm..

beyond this argument i am actually really fortunate that i have a really concern colleague.she helped me a lot and she's really kind and nice.thanks kak.

btw.i've got my NEW LIQUIDPAPER..so u jerk, keep the old one.i dont need it anymore!

14FEB2008

>wat day is today?
>>today is thursday maam..hoho..
>what ocassion are we on today?
>>nothing maam
>hoho nadia dear..u sound pathetic
>>is it maam?does it bother you anyhow?
>no..not exactly..but u're just pathetic.
>>so?
>do u have any problem nadia?
>>i dont think so..
>u sure?want me to remind u on anytink?
>>yeah..i am damn sure that i am perfectly OK
>hurmm..if u say so..but nadia, today is 14 of Feb..so..it is, Valentine
>>wat is valentine actually aa maam?nvr heard of it..
>hurmmm..u surely have a problem nadia luv..
>>wat is it maam?wat do u see?wat makes u say that?
>well i can see..that u're missing sumone ver much, and i see u're broken heart.and now in u're in such a mess cos u keep thinking about that person..
>>is that so??hoho..so i am damn pathetic..cos i keep blaming maself and keep wanting him and still in love with him big time..u want the truth aite?u got it.
>nadia dear, it is not a stupid thing for loving sumbody, but u just have to let it all go..when things are not destined for u.let it go, let it free...free ur mind, just think positively that everythings gonna just fine..dont force urself to forget about it..give it sumtimes, then it'll slowly go away..u can sumhow,think about it..but dont tortured urself.live ur life to the fullest.u still young, fresh, vibrant and a lot more is waiting for u.it's just love dear.still many to come..ur future i supposed is more valuable than anything else in the whole wide world.so, stop being sorry for yourself and live happily.
>>hurmm..u answered most of my confusion maam.
>u see..actually u know it, but u just need sum1 to tell u that it is ok..to cry, to be sad cos it's just the circle of life.there'll be ups there'll be down..and that's what we call LIFE.move on with ur life.and never turning back.i hope u'll always be happy.
>>u're like sum mind-reader maam..heh, spooky!!
>haha..very funny!

(*~*)

ever the same

We were drawn from the weeds
We were brave like soldiers
Falling down under the pale moonlight
You were holding to me
Like a someone broken
And I couldn't tell you but I'm telling you now

Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you so we both fall down

Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you forever in me
Ever the same

We would stand in the wind
We were free like water
Flowing down
Under the warmth of the sun
Now it's cold and we're scared
And we've both been shaken
Look at us
Man, this doesn't need to be the end

Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you so we both fall down

Fall on me tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I'll be there for you and you'll be there for me
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same

You may need me there
To carry all your weight
But you're no burden I assure
You tide me over
With a warmth I'll not forget
But I can only give you love

bile kenang2 balik..time putus cinta..aku rase 3 kali je..
aku akan adap balik lagu ni..
it means aku really love that guy..
but in the end..it's all went away..just like him..
i miss megat..(*_*)

stop n stare

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What u need, what u need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see...

CNY, kenduri kawen n ......

hurmm..lame la plak xmenulis kat cni..huhu
lame ke?hehe..xpasan lak..
ok..cuti pjg, banyak mase yg terluang..tp mmg malas skali nak on..
streamyx..sbb, layan ONE TREE HILL..la ni dh smp season 4, cd 4!
huh..syiokkk mmg syiokkk..
CNY ritu..xde kemane2, duk umah..mlm sblm CNY...duk bukak "kedai tart"
blueberry cheese tart..hoho..buat byk btol...
utk kawan2 berbangsa cine..pastu..esoknye,g shopping sensorang
hahahhahaha...cari barang nk buat tart lagi..
i admit..im a TART FREAKS!hoho...
tp bukan utk makan k..utk buat je/..
so, on weekend wat did i do?
instead of watching one tree hill...24/7, i went to adi's wedding..
hoho..with apis kassim n also guys from tokeikedai.
sort of..small gathering.heh..
and also, when to the Tg Bidara beach whcih actually, hvnt go there for ages!
and...with my baju kebaya n handbag n makeups (i'm crazy..a bit!) i actually..main air laut..aiyer, very messy aaa..abes basah baju..
hoho..excited maaa..lame xmandi laut!!
syiokk gak aa g kenduri adi..lame gile aku kat sane,,smp dlm kul 12.30..
aku balik dalam kul 3.30!hoho kesian apis..die ikot je aku..
thank u apis!
sape ek yg ade time kenduri tuh..kacap, zix, irfan, kulit, hanis, cik bu, tucen, kak nisa, antu, mawi, max, selamat, akudanmuzik(ntah..aku pn xknl die), am, kak pu3, lg sape ek..ramai aaa..aku smp lupe lak..
dah la tuh, g kenduri jumpe kawan skolah..a.k.a senior aku mase kat teknik a.k.a adik dak adi..adoilaaa...aku dhla takot dgn akak tuh..huahua..
so, itu jela..
on sunday, bgn kul 5 pagi!g kl..anta adik..
sudahnye..smp ke kl..aku tdo xbgn2..trokksss sgguh nadiahahn!:p
aku skrg ni..mmg addicted ckit dgn one tree hill, aku sgguh2 sensitif bile tgk cite ni..cam org bercinta..people always come n go..which is annoying..in love, heart broken..married, liars and all..
bile aku tgk drama ni.,..kisah2 cinta dorg aku cam mule memikirkan, btol ke slame ni..ape yg aku buat...blh ke aku skadar lpskan perasaan aku mcm tuh jer..tggalkn org yg aku syg tanpa alasan.tergamak ke aku nak buat mcm tuh..
not to mention that, everytime aku tgk cite ni..aku mest tringatkn MMZ..
aku kalau blh nak take every possible chances to show him that im really in love with him and im trying really hard to make US happen.i dont care wat it takes me to..but as long as i got to be with him, then everythings gonna be allright.i hv faith in wat we hv before and until now..its just him..no one else.
my bestest fren once said and also the same thing i got from one tree hill..
TO GET OVER SOMEONE IS TO GET UNDER SOMEONE ELSE..how can that be?how can i get under someone else, when i know that it's not possible for me to get a new man all of sudden?
maybe..im thinking about it too much..too much it hurt myself, to much it affected my health n my mind..i've got to be strong.
i maybe losing him now..but he never will lose me cos, i will always be with him..
now and always.

btw..selamat pengantin baru to ardi and eni!aku letak gmbr kenduri skali aaa

04feb2008

wat to write in?
hurmm..absolutely nothing..hahahahah
ok..my weekend..went on very well..
i bake tarts yesterday1blueberry cheese tarts.
the taste is HEAVEN!no kidding..haha..i said it bcos my mom loves it!
hehe..she's a bit choosy when it comes to food..very2..
cerewet may i say..huhu
she said..the pastry is good and very nice.hehe..
ibu tgkla sape buat..kan along..hahahahahha
CNY is coming..so..we'll be working only until wednesday!
haha..cutiiiiiiiiii cutiiiiiiiiii..syiokkknyerr cutiiiiiii..
hahahahahha...
regarding my ex..JIMMY..dude, wats wrong with him..haha..keep calling me though..
but no sms..cam malas je nak layan die..
die bagus..baik jer..but..ntahlaaa
MMZ..PMS kot skrg ni..everyday duk marah2 aku..aku jer yg kene..
ntahlaaa..
smlm die bgtau..die nk g kursus INTAN...starting 18feb until 22aug 6 months!
6 MONTHS??@!!!for god sake..i'm sure will be missing him damn mucho..and
actually..he kinda tell me that, he's getting himslef a laptop and will be subscribing celcom broadband..haha..that's my man!
hopefully, instead of smsing..we can do lots of emailing (if he willing too) and i will update my blog..at least twice a week, just to let him know wats happening around me.
huuuuu..he'll be startin' the course in 2 weeks, god..im sad..
im gonna miss him a lot!
cos..we surely..dont have time to chat more, sms more..
and please Allah..give me the patience.
i love him.