You're Gone

Dear Emi,

Thank you for everything u ever done for me, and I'm sorry if i ever hurt u..and i forgave u for everything but i am certain there is none because you are such a wonderful girl to people around you.

i known you for two years - a very short time yet a big impact in my life
i can still hear your voice - the way you laughed, you talked..and never i saw you mad.
meeting and knowing you was one of my happiest moment - and i regret that i didnt get the chance to meet you b4 you go.
the moment i heard the news, i just cudnt believe it..and i refuse to believe it. i keep reading on and on and on..until i was very sure that it is true.
Allahuakhbar..Innalillah..AlFatihah - that was all i can think abt the moment i know abt ur departure.
I want to cry badly - i just cant. But i can feel that u left a big hole in my heart and suddenly i feel empty.
I told most of our fren (same batch) - some of them do know and some of them dont.
I browse over ur page over n over again everyday - just to really convinced myself that u really gone.
Its hard to believe..but i have too.
I went to ur house, meet ur sister, brother and mother. You resembles ur mother a lot and suddenly i miss you.
I was lost of words of wat to talk about, I just remain silent and let the others talked. When your mother talked abt the incident that u were crying over some "ghosts" u saw, i was giggling and laughing. It was funny and knowing that you will laugh too if u heard that story - and that makes me laugh.
On my way back home - i thought of what happened if I ended up like you, wat will happened to people around me? and i keep thinking over n over and i was so sad and i cried.
The moment i'm writing this, i cried too. It's just unbelieveable - I lost you.
I lost you to ALLAH so i am very certain that u are in a better place now.

We maybe meet for a short time - but your presence coloured my world. Im happy being with you.

We'll meet again - InsyaAllah

Elia Emelia binti Sahlan (1985 - 2009)
You will always be loved and remembered.
Al Fatihah.

Meet Me Halfway - Black Eyed Peas

I can't go any further then this
I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish

Cool,
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day yes, I'm really missin' missin' you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl, what's up, it use to used to be just me and you
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day, yes I'm really missin missin you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl what's up, yo what's up, what's up, what's up

Can you meet me halfway, right at the boarderline
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Girl, I travel round the world and even sail the seven seas
Across the universe I go to other galaxies
Just tell me where to go, just tell me where you wanna to meet
I navigate myself myself to take me where you be
Cause girl I want, I, I, I want you right now
I travel uptown (town) I travel downtown
Wanna to have you around (round) like every single day
I love you alway... way
(I'll meet you halfway

Can you meet me half way)
Right at the boarderline
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Let's walk the bridge, to the other side
Just you and I (just you and I)
I will fly, fly the skies, for you and I (for you and I)
I will try, until I die, for you and I, for you and I, for for for you and I,
For for for you and I, for for you and I, for you and I

Can you meet me half way
Can you meet me half way
Can you meet me half way
Can you meet me half way

Meet me half way, right at the boarderline
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

im done

bye bye blogging world

...

u asked me..

"lame x tulis blog ke?"

ill answer u now..
whats the point of you keep reading my blog without understanding my feelings?
what exactly do u want from me when i say i want u back and u denied?
what is ur true feelings towards me, why cant u just be honest?
why didnt u just text or call me if u wanna know how am i doing instead of reading my blog?

im so sick of all these craps. ill move on.