You're Gone

Dear Emi,

Thank you for everything u ever done for me, and I'm sorry if i ever hurt u..and i forgave u for everything but i am certain there is none because you are such a wonderful girl to people around you.

i known you for two years - a very short time yet a big impact in my life
i can still hear your voice - the way you laughed, you talked..and never i saw you mad.
meeting and knowing you was one of my happiest moment - and i regret that i didnt get the chance to meet you b4 you go.
the moment i heard the news, i just cudnt believe it..and i refuse to believe it. i keep reading on and on and on..until i was very sure that it is true.
Allahuakhbar..Innalillah..AlFatihah - that was all i can think abt the moment i know abt ur departure.
I want to cry badly - i just cant. But i can feel that u left a big hole in my heart and suddenly i feel empty.
I told most of our fren (same batch) - some of them do know and some of them dont.
I browse over ur page over n over again everyday - just to really convinced myself that u really gone.
Its hard to believe..but i have too.
I went to ur house, meet ur sister, brother and mother. You resembles ur mother a lot and suddenly i miss you.
I was lost of words of wat to talk about, I just remain silent and let the others talked. When your mother talked abt the incident that u were crying over some "ghosts" u saw, i was giggling and laughing. It was funny and knowing that you will laugh too if u heard that story - and that makes me laugh.
On my way back home - i thought of what happened if I ended up like you, wat will happened to people around me? and i keep thinking over n over and i was so sad and i cried.
The moment i'm writing this, i cried too. It's just unbelieveable - I lost you.
I lost you to ALLAH so i am very certain that u are in a better place now.

We maybe meet for a short time - but your presence coloured my world. Im happy being with you.

We'll meet again - InsyaAllah

Elia Emelia binti Sahlan (1985 - 2009)
You will always be loved and remembered.
Al Fatihah.