why..

lately, aku slalu mengantok.
aku tdo xlmbt...by 10 or 10.30 aku dh slamat ke alam mimpi
ishh..knp jugak ni..
stress ke aku? maybe kot..there's just too many things in my mind now.
but one thing for sure..i am falling deep for him.
i just wanna go n throw myself at him and cry.im missing him like crazy.
i know that the moment i see him again, ill smile widely and hug him..i dont really care wat people are going to say. and i wanna whisper "i miss you" in his ear..
im going crazy!!

also..im torn in between.
whats the best for myself?i never know abt that..i just cant figure out wat i really want in life. well to tell ya the truth, i know what i want - its just that choosing the right thing is really hard. do i hv to suffer before making the right choice or shud i just go and be low profile - not thinking abt wat i do best?

im going back to melaka this weekend..hvnt go back for 2 weeks now..kesian ibu saye..

there's something that my friend asked yesterday make me think..until i cried.
and this is what keep on playing in my ear & mind

"THEY OWE ME MY CHILDHOOD"

why cant i be a forgiver? why cant i forget about the past at all? why do i carry everything - every single painful moment with me until now? i never know..and i dont wanna know..

Manchester United is playing against Bayern Munich tonite. cross-fingers they will win and go thru the semi final and once again meet Barcelona and it will be revenged time!!!