left out

somehow i felt left out sometimes

that is why i chose to be with my best friend on the weekend.

that is why i chose to spend my weekend

at her house

well we went to the Shout! Awards together and seriously

we had a lot of fun!!

lots of nice and energetic performance!

i think i'm into Deja Voodoo Spell now!

you guys rock!!

i'm not over Henry Golding yet..he's just too hot to forget..

lmao.

i am glad Phat Fabes won. i voted for him

and i really screamed when they announced that he won!!

oh my god..

well actually i did the same thing - when Henry won :p

haha..

it is Monday - i just don't feel like going back to that house.

it is not my place.

my place, my home is where my mother is.

that's where i lay my whole life.

satu

Last few weeks when i was in melaka..

breakfast at home - nasi lemak while watching

Nasi Lemak Kopi O haha

at the end of the show

they played one of Dewa song..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hts_XSaZHto

of course i will sing along!

it's Dewa...i love Dewa :p

while i was singing

i heard my mom was saying..

"ehh budak ni beriya die nyanyi dik.."

she told that to my sister..

all i can do is smile..

obviously she will be surprised as i'm not 

a big fan of malay songs :p

to my beloved and only mother..

of coursela along tau lagu melayu..certain lagu saje 

la tapi :p

hehe..and while i wrote this..

i listened to Larut - Dewa.

and crap. i am so addicted to Linkin Park 

again!!

they make me feel so young!!!

:p

my list

can't smile without you.how deep is your love.the man that can't be moved.

you needed me.time after time.i'll be.sometimes when we touch.

careless whisper.what about love.deeper conversation.from this moment.

you and me.no one.

sleepyhead

i am so sleepy right now.

i slept really late last nite.

i need my sleep..

or else soon jerawat akan naik mcm 

cendawan tumbuh..

bile nk dpt tgk The Unstoppable ni?

lie to me

why people do have to lie?

if you like a person then like that person

if you dislike a person then just tell that person

why do people have to be so good at lying?

dang!

never say never part II

i am listening to never say never while writing this.

sometimes i do wonder

why do i look down on myself at time?

why am i afraid  of being bold and transparent?

what will i lose from that?

isn't that will booze up my confidence, be bold and beautiful..

isn't it good?

or am i just thinking and asking too much?

what is the point of you loving a person but all you 

can do is look from afar and wish that you can be together

with that person?

i mean why do we have to suffer?

why can't we just let it all out?

if you love a person, then just go love that person.

why stop yourself?

i mean all we do is just loving that person

not ruining or stealing from him/her.

love cause no harm ait?

what's pride has got to do with love?

should we put pride above our feeling,

should we keep our ego in the way?

i really don't know why i'm talking about this..

but for me, saying i love you won't do any harm

it will just definitely make you feel better.

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.
- Captain Corelli's Mandolin6. "Love is the beauty of the soul."

sms

last nite..

i texted with my few of my frens..

and suddenly..i text her..

dah nak hujung tahun dah..

and she said - she'll be busy next year..

so we exchange couple of texts and

i suddenly told her my dreams.

it made me realize that - yes i do have few dreams

to be fulfilled.

if not at the nearest time - maybe in few years.

one step at a time.

that is what she said 

and as usual i cannot agree more.

for now i just have to work really like super hard

so that i can achieve my dream.

insyaAllah.

another text to my best friend.

sometimes, it struck my mind that..

WE ARE ADULT NOW

and i wish that we don't have to grow up.

we dont have to think about commitment

boyfriends, loves, marriage and stuffs

but thats life.

and back when we wee in school..

we use to talk about our fav boy bands

and stuff..

and now, we talked about boy we love..

marriage, commitment.

thank you Allah for letting us still 

be side by side

and together facing the world 

boys..i think we are doomed when it comes to boys.

haishhhh